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mm, i have so much so say but too difficult to put into words. teeheeheeeeeeeeeeee :D i feel happy yet sad i dont know why ): happy that there is only one more paper left, but yet sad at my performance for all papers we've taken so far ): quote ms yap, "as long as you have tried your best, it is okay..." and so if i've tried my best, and yet i screw up, it means i'm really really really dumb. right? omg this is like so depressing lah goodness )):

it's the first time in my whole life i actually bought assessment books and did it on my own accord.
it's the first time in my whole life i actually mugged so hard for an exam.
it's the first time in my whole life i really really want to do well (yeah its true).
it's the first time in my whole life i feel so disappointed with myself.

killed myself doing phy ytd night until nearly 12am. and yet i was still such a failure today. i did until my eyes totally blurred and even mr c went to sleep liao i still doing with lala online okay ): but yet.. spammed questions this morning again, and again just before the paper. but i'm still quite hopeless. chem and bio were really really careless lah. but i still do until damn happy okay. i just took the paper and happily did. then today i open the phy paper the first thing i said was "mr c can you please dont stand there?" ._. guess why. first question dont know how to do liao. he stand there too stressed -.-'' ohmygooseness): then i finished the paper damn fast. guess why. i skipped nearly half the paper :D i'm a genius liao lah.

physics question paper got collected back, so didnt check answers yet, but i've chem and bio question paper here. check with quite a number of people, chem -5 and bio -4 alrd. yay me. :D eh, not bad lah. i thought i was going to do bio with my own theory but i actually do until quite happy lorh :D then after the paper i started jumping up and down xD teehee! damn happy bio was over. never did i realise that phy would be so screwed up. phy paper two the answers totally dont make any sense. i was so pissed off halfway during the paper i wanted to tear the paper up alrd please -.- then that girl beside me keep sneezing i cannot even concentrate on the paper. damn irritating leh. during chem and bio not that bad lah. but today when i needed the most concentration, she just continue sneezing nonstop. when she stopped, she started coughing. goodness gracious.

chem paper two was terrible. i'm not sure if i'll do well because usually if i think the paper is terrible i wont be so careless. but then bio paper two i did until damn happy write and write and write until my hand damn pain xD then skip and skip and skip. then i was wondering why i skip so much vivian still do faster than me ): sigh. phy dont want to elab xD i just did and then stone, come up with some theory, and continue doing :D

i hope i pass (because passing secures me an A1) teehee. can pass? ): chem and bio i think so, phy i not sure leh ): omg ): i hope i pass chinese and la because it secures me a B3 :D i gave up on ih. i pass i laugh my ass off. okay okay enough of exams. damn stressed out alrd. screwed up my math paper one so i should be guai and mug really really hard for my math paper two yeah yeah. sigh. sad life please. oh i wanted to post smth xD but then ... kk shall post it :D

during chem paper i got damn irritated. the teachers in front there kept talking and xx was talking to xx (quite easy to guess) about vanessa heng. yeah you know vanessa heng. then i kept hearing my name omg ?! damn distracting. then xx starting taking photos of nis and then the shuttle sound damn noisy. i look up, xx tell me to concentrate and do my work. like goodness?! you are the one who distracted me first ?! and then you ask me to concentrate and do my work ?! then luckily mr c came and sit in front xD then vivi got all the noise): sorry vivi!! okay okay dont complain to me that mr c sit in front of me never sit in front of you ): its not my fault ): sorry ): (LOL she was hearing about writing paper and whatever crap as so i heard from her xD because i didnt hear that part of the convo LOL)

during bio paper. after i finish writing until damn happy, i went back to in front to check those parts i skipped. then i looked up, xx ask me "can i take picture of your dog?" and then i totally dao. omg -.- it's an exam. wah i tell you. teachers tell us to please maintain silence, and then they start whispering during our paper, and walking around in high heels clogging here and there. very noisy and distracting leh. then we cannot concentrate. i'm sorry but please be more considerate. (somebody will tell me i'm not being respectful here, but its true right!) sorry):

CA2 msg is damn damn damn nice :D 1.76 :D if i got A2 for LA it would be 1.59 alrd lorh ): but it would become 2.smth again for overall grade. i'm 100% sure gosh. i hate it. i need my languages to do better. or my msg would never improve. i need to do my ih well so that my report card can look nicer. I NEED TO START PASSING IH ): roar.

smp? lala i dont know. there so much to think about. and besides we got rejected two consecutive years alrd leh. plus two person very stressful one. this year marks might be able to make it lah since we improve so much. but then then then you know teachers. you know.. i know you know :D teehee. unless we put 3 different teachers? wakakakak.

i was thinking of math sia next year. research project haha. i was suddenly thinking about how i finished the whole project in sec one and then got full marks xD then in sec two my name appeared in the research project list and the math olympiad list xD then i was lol-ing xD then this year because last year i backed out of the research project my name wasnt in so i was just down for math olympiad. i'm thinking if next year i'll still be down for math olympiad. or else i'll need to do self study which i seriously suck at ): kk no point wasting brains cells on this manzxzx !

i need to go out.
i need to practice piano.
i need to practice math.
i need to compile formula list.
i need to do alot of things.

time to move my ass. :D

shannon thinks that by sms-ing it's not sincere enough ._. so she had to call me at 11+ pm last night to say thankyou. HILARIOUS. omg. totally went keehaha when i picked up the phone (just that didn't laugh through the phone or else you'll go deaf)

chem is driving me nuts.

my chinese la ih math all cannot make it liao :D

lalajong i never paoqi you lorh ): i bet i'll fail with you please ): somemore my math you tell me don't so bei guan later if really got all those wrong, then i'll get even lower than you liao. ih is same as history last year lah. i think i'll just screw my essay and screw my sbq exactly th same way xD last year also did essay first and just wrote what i felt like writing for sbq :D then my sbq fail like nobody's business. i think thats what's going to happen this year again. yay me (:

mr c. says if i fail my phy he'll treat me to small ice-cream xD then i nearly laughed my ass off xD then i was asking him about something he tell me i not bad lah. at least i still say thankyou when he give out string during exam. then i went keehaha xD gooseness xD pss, random is just random lah. it's because we random thats why we say random. actually i also dont know lorh, i also don't use that word on you you ask me for what ):

if i fail my chinese again this year. i havent break my record of failing eoy yet. if i fail my la again this year, i also havent break my record of failing eoy yet. and yet i'll get slapped by somebody ): wow. i think i'm epic xD wonder how i got myself into this mess. did the whole summary forgetting that there was a summary question. then i do finish alrd damn happy leh somemore got alot of time left and then that day i kept sneezing then my eyes cannot open liao so go and sleep. then 5 minutes left mr c. woke me up xD because his voice damn loud i just jumped xD read through th question paper and realised there was a summary question. win liao.

i need to do my phy past year papers. i want haagen dazs but i know i won't get it ): unless maybe if i go fail my paper he'll give it to me xD LOL. i think he said that because he know that i won't purposely go and fail to get icecream xDD but WHAT IF. i really fail ): got high possibility lah. aiyah sad life.

18 more days to th end of eoys. i think. 7 more papers to go. i cannot afford to screw my math paper 2 liao. of else my overall grade is byebye. drop like nobody's business ): then phy need to be very careful because if i don't do well it's byebye a1. bio abit better than phy bahh (omg how leh. my bio used to be my worst science -.-) so i hope can maintain a1 :D chem it's not about getting a1. hint to some smart ass xD who only needs to get 95 for eoy to get overall 90. i need to get 98 omg how ): i hope our sia marks ain't that bad pleasepleaseplease ): i reallyreally want that 90 for chem because i know my math is cmi liao ): it has been cmi for th past few years alrd anw.

i realised my average for 5 sciences for ca2 improved xD as in compared to ca1. quite shocked because math dropped (and it's double weightage) and chem dropped xD (to lalajong that's why i not happy lah can):) but then overall still got improve so not bad lah. my chinese and ih sure got improve for ca2. because this time round my ih sure pass xD then my chinese gut feeling lorh, pass my bt2 mah :D la idk leh. i passed my bt2 also but then i failed some assignments but for ca1 i failed bt1 passed all assignments. sigh haha life is ironic.

shit i just saw smth i dont like. shit dont come omg. shit.

forget it. i can't control you. as long as you don't mess up my life again. anw to lala. stop -.-ing me ): if you get higher than me for any subject you treat me because you don't believe i won't paoqi you. ): evil pig. i didn't oink you so you don't oink me back ): sigh. back to mugging )))):

i wish things won't turn out like this.

stop pushing me around.

mr c. is crazy omg. what kind of bet is that man ): 90 ?! 90 ?! only one genius in our class can get it lah ): and i hope our class average can be B3 and above :D then wahahahah. mr c. is evil ):

i shouldn't be here, i should be mugging my ass off ): CA2 marks are not bad :D with the exception of math and chem prolly. (well only got 3 sciences + math marks back so far xD) aiyah don't expect much from th rest of th subjects also lah ): sia marks kind of suck tho ): only know a few, but they're sucky enough alrd ):

garharhgahraghah ): i'm getting super stressed out by nothing suddenly, there's just this huge urge that makes me want to mug and mug and mug, but then the more i mug the more unprepared i feel ): omg howwwwwww )):

being really incoherent here. oh too bad.

i'm starting to be unable to withstand your moodswings.

i don't know how to react to you nowadays. it seems so weird ):

wednesday, thursday, friday :D

all very fun days :D actually i can't remember much about monday and tuesday alrd lah. so i shall not talk about it :D wednesday was the chinese thing which wasn't chinese at all :D went keehaha on the bus started singing old macdonalds and making animal sounds xD then lala and vivi totally went like "15 year olds are crazy!" then shannon and jolene were also 14 LOL. damn retarded lah. i think i laughed and screamed until i got sore throat xD and shannon happily shouted to the bus uncle if there is dustbin in the coach xD then he replied. no rubbish bin, not even supposed to eat on the bus xD

wednesday also discussed night treasure hunt stuff :D so interesting so interesting ! :D but not done yet ):

thursday discussed wide game stuff :D this is damn hilarious xD hahahahahah. okay nvm. also not done yet )):

studied with vic in th library on thurs :D i'm done with mugging ih LOL. retarded. but aye, don't really need to remember much what ): and i only learning one topic ): yeah ! we were sitting at the exact same spot as when we studied tgt last year :D then it was damn hilarious, we from ih started chanting geog stuff xD natural vegetation and adaptations and all of that. then i think the juniors there got pissed with us hahahah. they were doing bio -.-

friday :D which is today lah. pccg was totally wth -.- first two lesson spent doing math. ): and only finished 3 questions in the end. so shi bai omg ): break rushed to makan :D then started going keehaha with two dolphins xD so high the frequency, i hear until my ear pain ): went back class then i forgot what i did -.- oh went keehaha with keer,jezamine,vivi :D bio lesson. chinese lesson. break. la lesson. went to find ms chen, unsuccessful. go back class :D mr c. gave extra remedial :D then i drove him nuts. but i not sure if he reached yet xD made him explain all worksheets from 8.1 - 10.1 :D actually not alot lah. i drove him nuts by insisting functions is must sub in one. then he tell me, no! must find the inverse xD

then we happily sit there and argue. and i conclude that mr c. also quite careless lorh ! too bad i got answer before you!! wahahahahah. yay me :D actually both methods correct lah. just that his is shorter, but too bad i still got answer before him :D vivi asked him graphs :D which sucked. graphs always sucks ):

okay. he's treating huishan haagen dazs icecream if she passes phy eoy ): me leh ):

he was supposed to treat us icecream. then vivi ask for cone he didnt even want to give her ):

i'm hungry. i'm going to eat and continue mugging. i'm sick of mugging actually, but i need to do it or else i'll fail eoys ): esp. math. /ps anybody knows how to do revision booklet chapter13 question31ii ? :D if you know please be a kind soul.

sigh. byebye, i guess i'll stay away from the com until after eoys.

if you think that by sending that you can make up for everything, then you're wrong.

maybe i made the wrong assumptions, but too bad. it's my choice.

-period-

this is a lil' late again but anw :D

happy birthday xinyung :D

welcome to the 15 year old gang :D and 14 year olds are the ones who are crazy right! :D since there are more 15 year olds than 14 year olds now :D (shit i can't type properly. i feel like i've been off th com for decades -.-) aiyoyo nowadays so many people's birthday ): sigh. but anw, still happy birthday! :D hey control your 'wife' more. she still keep bullying me. tsktsk xD

i've nothing else to say. quite disappoint with someone. there's chinese xue xi zhi lv tmr ): means i'm missing piano. kind of good kind of bad :D good is because i've not been practicing a lot lately, bad because i feel like going for lesson xD LOL am i making sense omgooseness -.- i think i'm going keehaha alrd lah.

on a sidenote, my left shoulder still hurts.

and vivian whacked it aft assembly today -.- gives her diao look. and she says "oh sorry! i forgot!" -.-

best.

seems like i've blanked a few people out from my life nowadays. which is kind of cool since then i won't have to feel those tension between us :D those who've been in this situation before, maybe you'll understand.

firstly! i didnt come online ytd so i couldnt do this but here it goes :D

happybirthday JESSIE TEE JIA QI ! :D

somebody concluded that 15 year olds are crazy :D so now you've officially joined th gang. plus somebody else going to join soon aye! :D i bet you're in malaysia now :D nevermind lah. some classic person :D i'm quite classic also xD i was wondering i stay up so late for what xD then i happily went to sleep. when i woke up then i remembered :D but aye! you're 15! :D so act more matured and stop bullying me (although vivi bullies th most and yet she's th youngest of us all ): ) almondnut <3 thankyou for all those fun and laughter we shared, and i hope we've happier days to come :D

vivisari! you wait long long lah. i write 3yearsschoolfees and give you for your birthday :D wahahahahahaha xD really lah :D no more emoing or nonsense :D buckup! yay!!

lalajong :D heyhey! i think you're going keehaha too :D vic not only know you what! ._. i read through th whole post and couldn't make any connection -.- smart ass lah. okayokay you're ass not smart xD classic person xD remember to bring jessie's present on tuesday! (/ps hers how O:) haha don't think so much because if i'm talking about you, you'll get it straight into your face :D or smth along those lines because if i get pissed enough, you'll see it up here too :D and i say again, that dog is not a weird shape ):

back to th social circle thingum :D cheryee kind of got added back in again because she saved me from a mentally unstable liweiqi :D then i happily ran away while she got attacked by weiqi :D so she's added in again :D oh man this is quite retarded lah. but after _ i really didnt feel like talking to alot of people for many different reasons. but i guess it all boils down to the same fact. i hope that i'll start talking to th many of yall again, but sometimes when faced with you, i just can't seem to be able to do so ): maybe it's because you've hurt me first. i'm not hurting any of you on purpose, you did it first.

wanting! :D thankyou for your note haha omg so cute <3 i'll write you one for your birthday too :D plus get a present because i'll have time :D yay! i realised i know you for 9 years alrd? :D haha ayeaye! :D mm, let's see :D we've been in th same class in pri 1,3,4 O: haha quite lil' actually :D but we've actually known each other for so long :D eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! <3

vickyzhao :DD you're chem quite hopeless xD totally lmao-ed at your 5 laws of solubility. "okay vic, tell me what are th 5 laws of solubility?" "oh i know. carbonate law!" lala&i "hahahahahahaha" okay lah, i know you're chem teacher also abit hopeless but also not hopeless until this standard right -.- you can tutor me phy :D because vivisari has become my bio tutor :D wahahah! hey we've yet to plan our v&v timetable remember! :D this sunday no dance which means i'm not going to meet you ): but i'll go your house someday to mug :D v&v timetable to be planned soon! :D haha omg, i remembered charlene's reaction last year xD

on a sidenote, i remembered smth xD i drove charlene nuts on wednesday xD i was pracing piano in sch, then when i went back class, i xia dao because mrc. inside th class xD then i just threw my books in and went out again xD realised jackie called me so i had to send her waterbottle to art room for her. (ps, jackie is an evil pig) then i went back class saw charlene xD then we were walking around the whole school (okay this is a lil' exaggerated but haha) but i dragged her to class to do phy worksheet 9.3 with me :D (i know her class do alrd mah!) then i drove her nuts with the stupid worksheet xD because she did it before then i keep asking her and telling her the answer is too ridiculous to be the answer xD

asked mrc. for answer then he said that is the answer LOL. then charlene nuts liao, started screaming i told you so xD then she ask me why mrc like my friend like that i told her he also keehaha one mah :D (because it's true anw :D)

rewind to monday "ah jong ah!" xD rofl xD "larissa howwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwlyn" xD omg hilarious xD sounded really like a wolf lah. tsk vivi remember! xD

then do until part (c), charlene happily told me she forgot how to do -.- so i ask mrc. then he refuse to tell me answer ): his answer was "you got friend beside you what, ask me for what!" so charlene ran away ): and i went for my piano lesson ): which sucked. but wahahahahah. at least i drove people nuts first :D

charlene's kungfu bear havent kicked her nose yet ): lala howww ): she somemore tell me the bear dont know keep where liao. she keep in such a safe place she can't remember where she kept it ): so mean right ): (ps let's buy her bear again next year xD) then we make sure it kicks her nose first xD LOL.

retardedness. the result of mugging too much ): sigh. i mug until fell asleep ytd xD then woke up at 7++ ate and started mugging until 1am :D not bad lah xD but then i need tutors ): vivisari ): i want you to tutor me ): bio ): every single thing. if i fail it's your fault ): you tutored me math before bt2 xD then in the end i did quite well what xD quite lah. quite :D the keyword is quite :D but better than nothing right! :D those who get tutored by me = die ): one example is jessie's phy xD lala's math xD actually lala's math not that bad lah :D

okay i'm going to eat. enough of wasting time on th com, back to mugging :D

i'm not sorry. because i'm not going to apologise for the sake of apologising.

to somebody. think of how you treat others first before you start to comment on how others are treating you. if you don't realise the way you're acting then i'm sorry. too bad. sad for you. i don't mean to be mean or anything, but i cannot stand the way you treat people reallyyyyyyy nice at times and start talking behind their backs at others. and i hate liars. really. i remembered i used to lie a lot when i was younger, but now i don't anymore. and from this, i've come to hate liars. especially those who do it right into your face when it's so obvious that that is not the case. (if you understand what i mean good for you.) and i hate people who loves to act all goodygoody in front of others. it's damn irritating (vic you know who. or maybe you dont ): )

after talking to somebody, it totally spoilt my mood ): no. not that somebody who spoilt my mood. it's the somebody we ended up talking about. why you go and tell her ): i really dont want her to come. after everything, and we're back to square one again ?! it was exactly the same case last year wasn't it. and i hate it. hate it to the max. i don't want to go through all those agony all over again ): i dont want to see. dont want to go. but i don't have a choice, so ask her not to come ): please. i know last year i begged her to come, but but after what she did, no. i've enough. i dont want to make empty promises to myself again.

i want to talk to somebody who would understand. i feel so messed up now. xx1 and xx2 ): add in another xx3 which pissed the hell out of me today ): life sucks. at least at the moment it does. spent like hell long trying to match answers with lala -.- and we ended searching the net for like dont know how many thousand questions, solving them with our own theories. like really! how to pass eoys like that lah ): and my brain dead le lah ): i feel like breaking down in tears all over again ): shit i hate this feeling. why does all the bad things happen at the same time? why? huh? )):

i forgot to say this in the previous post:

thankyou lala,abi,sherbie,vivi,jane,vic,weiqi, for prezzies/lunch/whatnot. iloveyou guys ! :D although it's abit late ): heh sorry. i thought i would just get this line out before i forget and stuff :D (to anybody if i miss out your name, i'm sorry)

i realised i still owe jane letter-.- it was in my file then i forgot to pass to her ._. it's nice to think of such simple things once in a while :D thinking of which, i should go and sleep my worries away.

piano sucked today.

contridicting titles in a row but who cares :D it just boils down to some people able to make me smile and some to just cry. whoever that person is, i dont care anymore. dont want to care (and i just hope that it'll work. i've enough of sleepless nights thinking about that person. really.)

belated wishes :D are all appreciated :D adelyn :D huiling :D jastine :D liwen :D singqing :D billy :D and some which i uh can't remember :D omg jastine is the best lah. hers went smth like this "happy belated birthday :D you're old old old hahahahah you're old like me, old old old. too bad lah you old already, must be more matured lah old person. old old old old old old . . ." then continue to old all the way. and then i go keehaha lorh :D 

to somebody! that present is not weird shape please ): it's very very very normal ): how can you insult it ): so cruel ): and i got go keehaha lorh, just that when i go keehaha right, you decided to ignore me ): somemore purposely put your hand up cover your face and not see me ): then agree with vivi that 15 year olds are crazy ): hmph D<

campfire on saturday was fun! :D didn't want to go at first, but it wasn't too bad after all, but it's still ranked th lowest out of all th campfires i went too (sorry but yes). spent most of th time taking photos with batchmates :D with lightsticks !! was trying to write words and capture them on photos, but then my phone cam reaction time too slow liao so cmi ): then others don't have flash, only mine have so cannot take ): then took huimin driving car LOL. angel wearing bangles driving car xD hilarious xD

i think we spent more time laughing than anything lah :D abigail.meishan.sheryl.huimin.yunqi.me! :D abiabi! send me th angel pics of meishan,sheryl,huimin :D and me too! :D because my phone only have you and yunqi ): in the dark one. but yours is when not dark yet ): so fun so fun :D we should go out together some day. we ended up counting stars in th sky :D hahahaha was teasing huimin about all her hobbies being those of those old people xD super funny.

on a random note, i need to start mugging. desparately.

on an endnote. i need to solve my gcp problem, do my phy, do my chem, do my math. and figure out whats going on for farewell ): and one last thing. who wants to tutor me circle properties ): because i can't get myself to sit down and study it ): anybody ? ))): i hope ih presentation is alright now.

i should get off the com and start working my ass off.

to those lovelies out there, thankyou <3

and to somebody, read my message, and feel the warmth :D and you know smth, its true, really, every single word. read it, and face everything with courage, because knowing that you can do it, is half the battle won. i've been through it, and i know it's true. :D iloveyou(:

happybirthday huiying! shiaowei's mum! charis' sis! :D haha and all those whose birthday is on 0909 :D which is a reallyreally nice date :D

yay okay thankyou GOD for giving me this day :D the day where i turn 15 :D you know many people out there don't get the fortune to live till this age :D yay me :D thankyou to my family :D supporting me through all these years :D i know there were times when we're angry/unhappy/whatnot with each other, but whatever it is i know y'all still love me :D

thankyou to th following :D

victoria! jane! wanting! sheranne! weiqi! aurelia! meishan! michelle! jessie! abigail! jinhui! larissa! shiaowei! jinyi! charlene! weishan! huiying! elissa! all batchmates unnamed just yet, lazy to think liao xD (actually those named are those who wished me ytd :D if i remember correctly :D) aiyah but i love y'all all th same <3

thankyou vicky,jane,sheranne for prezzies :D and i'm looking forward to somebody's prezzie tmr :D (how to act matured when th prezzie is from her lah) omg -.- haha and and somebody else said that right, my prezzie too heavy cannot carry to chinatown tsktsk :D and i'm waiting for somebody's note :D hahahahah :D plus loads more i don't want to mention (esp somebody's letter <3)

actually really touched that some of you remembered :D you know who you are <3

i am happy so i shall blog about ytd :D heritage trail was realllyyyy fun! thanks to tania&sihui :D and batchmates + guides + participants :D bukit panjang guides were awesome :D iloveyall! :D they were super enthu lah :D and they said hi and bye when they came and left :D then no matter how frustrated they were, they were still smiling :D and from my other i/c right, when they went into th temple, the ran. keyword is ran. like oh my goodness :D i loveee! their sense of urgency. and and right, everytime they see a statue, they would stop running and pray to it :D omg so cute! and i know this is true because my other i/c came out of th temple breathless :D besides that :D

thankyou for lunch+coke weiqi! <3 okay yeah that'll be my birthday treat. yay love you 白菜汤 :D you're sooooooooooo nice :D and yes i do remember your birthday too! :D (and ps, i don't like her also ): i think you know who i'm referring to? actually i think a lot of people also cannot stand her attitude lah) haha love!

walked back to chinatown :D prizepresentation :D thankyou batchmates for th birthday song, but yes it's embarrassing to be sung a birthday song in th middle of chinatown point :D but i love y'all all th same :D went back to maxwell food centre for batchlunch :D didn't eat because i finished food from weiqi alrd! :D attempted to give someone chem remedial -.- but gave up.

went to abi's house! :D omg super fun :D yay thankyou abi/macadamianut/dadajie :D hazelnut/daxiaojie loves you to th max !! and i love your house too! WII :D i know my house also have but still -.- doing WII fitness test with batchmates are hilarious xD meishan's bowling is cannot make it one xD she killed 4 tries then she realised how to bowl properly xD and she died at stage 2 ): aww, i feel sad for you xD shall not expose your age to th rest of th world. but it's hilarioussssssss! :D i wonder who is th youngest. i forgot O: i remember it's 46years old :D and i forgot who else joined my league of scoring 0 for baseball :D

youngest in our batch currently is 46 years old. oldest is 80 years old :D shiaowei is pro at tennis :D sihui is pro at baseball :D jolene is pro at bowling :D raving rabbits is lame omg, but sheryl + huimin add together and play is amusing x10000000 yay omg i love batchmates :D was super entertaining xD (on a sidenote, i boxed until my muscles super pain liao, ytd i can't even play th piano properly, today not so bad lah :D)

went down to shallow pool to splash abi :D and in th meantime all of us got wet ): 9 against 1 :D sihui,meishan,evie,jolene.pingzheng,huimin,sheryl,shiaowei,me! against abigail :D but abiGAIL (wahaha xD) is mean and she wet all of us ): we wanted to carry her up and throw her into th pool but decided against it because she changed ): and then she was th only dry one and th rest of us were wet ): mean-eh! but i still love you :D went to billet room to dry xD and i suck at billet ): national player: meishan! :D omg xD sheryl, huimin :D these are th more outstanding ones of us all :D oh and pingzheng also !! :D then play halfway shiao's dad called so we left first ): oh man super fun xD let's try that again someday.

evie say one! cycling + rollerblading, barbecue + swimming, sleepover :D who suggested doing it th day before ATC! :D i agree! so fun :D haha ohman batchsleepover. plus loads and loads of horror movies :D

today :D woke up at 11pm :D loved all those who messaged me, yall know who you are :D and jinyi, i'm matured alrd ): went imm xD went for piano. highlights :D (you know i've this bag with a lot of voodoo dolls xD)

"omg your bag so cute!"
-takes bag and starts poking on th dolls one by one-
-me laughs my ass off at her-
"where you buy from one!"
"uh japan"
"how many did you buy!" -grins innocently-
"my friend gave it to me :D" -smiles innocently
-gives me a sad face, continues poking at dolls-
-continues laughing my ass off xD-
"i think i'm th pink one :D"
"and i think you're th green one :D"
-me continues laughing my ass off-
"play the piano lah"
-continue poking at dolls-
-me tries to play th piano but is laughing too much-
xD LOL.

while playing arabesque xD first few bars still okay lah. when reach th hemiola part xD

"debussy going to jump out of his grave and kill you alrd lah! it's a romantic song you play until like jazz one!"
-laugh my ass off as she kicks me off th chair to try to play for me :D-

yay i'm so pro :D

intermezzo :D

"this is a dip syllabus song, it's really difficult (gives sad face)."
-starts sightreading-
"but i think you can play it lah"
"must play it well okay"
"sightread RH first!"
-me tries to sightread RH first, but nearly died (oh please her tempo is freaking fast ):)-
"goodgoodgood"
-me totally diao her-

holy cow lah ._. there's still somemore but me very lazy to type liao xD plus i don't want to announce to th whole world th rest of th happenings because it's abit wrong xD

somebody's waiting for my post. and that somebody told me to prepare two asses tomorrow because i'm going to laugh my ass off at th wrapper, and th second ass off at th present xD then she told me "maybe two asses still not enough" xD

bye!

/edit :D

add vivi to th list :D yay i love vivi (and i thought you forgot xD) then i realised i missed it LOL. rah.

at a loss of what to do.

on a sidenote, i saw zihui last sunday xD this is damn random ._.

on another sidenote xD happybirthday jinyi! <3




















lead th way ):

friday was a hectic day, really. can't really remember all th details, but knew that i felt both great and awful. (inserts an emoticon here). don't know how i'm feeling, know that i'm prolly going to repeat th same whole story again, shed th same old tears (how?!) again, but i just feel like ranting them all out ):

friday. pccg sucked. was reading my book. phy changed to chem so there was two straight periods of chem which i promptly fell asleep after listening for awhile. woke up and tried doing past year papers. not quite successful as i promptly fell asleep again. woke up to th bell. ran out of class -.- to pee LOL. bio sucked as usual. chinese was cme presentation, whiled my time away. last period was watching emma. lamed out by my class, equals laughing my ass off. checked marks which sucked as usual ):

cca = elections. don't know how to describe all those feelings blending into one ): it's kind of a warm feeling that all batchmates were there to support each other through, lovelove <3 esp. tania,jinhui,lingran who were th last out there with me swaying with th music and repeating our intros again and again. but once in th lt, everything seemed calmer :D thankyou <3

went back to 1. buy mozart's collection or smth like that xD 2. collect marksheet 3. see ms lee + give present :D haha aye mixed feelings when i got home, don't really know how i felt, just cried and cried again ): i wish i won't get th feeling ever so much ): and when i read her message on saturday morning, i felt warm, touched and i don't know how to describe lah. it's just all those happy feelings mixed into one. plus in lonely ): sigh things would never be th same again. althought it's still kind of th same. haha not making sense.

ih sucks. and i'll contine to be sucky ): ahh well, let's wallow in th past live th present, welcome th future.

i'llmissyou ):

i'm just starting to know the real you. it's really inconsiderate.

i'm looking forward to smth..

not looking forward to elections..

thinking about something..

going to do math..

sigh, i want to post, but yet i dont want to post ): aww man, whats wrong with me nowadays. really irritated by smth today, but then cheered up at the thought of smth else :D and 'm still quite happy about it right now, just that i don't know when i'll do it :D elections this friday and i'm kind of freaking out at the thought alrd. oh man seriously! i can't do it. can't can't can't. period.

and i'm just going to make a fool out of myself. and i'm like one of th last, which means that the guides would have heard most of th answers of batchmates going before me alrd, which would make me a even bigger fool. and which means that i've to worry longer )): and which means that i'm going to be big fat fool D: i go hide myself and cry alrd lah ):

holidays are taken up, or rather kind of O: scary isnt it !

monday : phy extra lesson + some science symposium thingum
tuesday : west division heritage trail
wednesday : :D + piano lesson
thursday : ih extra lesson
friday : -
saturday : -
sunday : church + dance class

nothing else i hope O: mm, two days to sleep my ass of. not bad lah! :D eoy timetable out alrd. and th timetable sucks like crap. it's like manual labour )): okay lah that part not so bad, but then how can how can eoys be like nearly one month )): with the big one week gap in th middle )): increase stress level because cannot get over and done with it )): shit. i should just worry about one thing at a time ._. right. elections first. once i finished screweding it up, i'll start thinking about mugging for eoys. and hopefully this year my eoys would be much better ? :D

well for one i passed my chinese xD and la xD and ih xD and math xD and bio xD and phy xD and chem xD okay going nuts here, but i don't want eoys to pull me down again ): very sickening lah, every year also get pulled down by eoys, the whole year's effort all going to waste ): such a waste of time and energy ):

don't think i'll make it to SMO next year ): screwed up this year ): i wonder if there is any smart ass who got bronze/silver/gold )): sure have de lah. not me can alrd )): but we're th juniors of th seniors )): aye i'm sad.

i'm going to worry myself silly ): bye.

was reading something and thinking of someone then i started crying ): okay i was looking at something then i starting thinking then i started crying ): the reading part was an entirely different issue but it played a part in making me cry too ): aye i suddenly feel very sad, and i don't know why ): i miss a lot of people, and i'm thinking about the many things that i'm regretting ):

jessie! cannot fall sick please? who ask you so smart go run in th rain lah ): cannot paoqi me tmr leh, must teach me math+phy. i need remedial badly ): and mrc is very smart. okay he is or else he won't be a teacher. but he can't cheat our feelings because he said he'll upload worksheets but he didn't ): then he still expect us to do our assignments ): so mean lah!

i'm thinking about some stuff + some people. and they're making me kind of angry. okay shall not be angry and shall stop thinking about it anymore (: i should go and read my book so that i'll stop thinking about stuff that make me laugh to myself. make me start crying. make me get really really pissed off. sigh.

biobiobiobiobio sucks big time ): why can't i ever fathom you bio ): ohkay. back to bio then my storybook. bye ! (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUNIOR!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MEISHAN!

AND YOU DID JUST FINE WEIQI!

:D i am very happy (: btw, junior=jastine. and she's one year older and should be more matured and stop bullying me D: and lala. and jessie and vivi should also stop bullying me because they are younger than me. whole day also bully older ones! jessie the best lah. older also bully younger also bully D: so mean de. hmph.

doing herstory, 'll update properly soon.

i passed and i'm glad. know that i disappointed my teacher ALOT. and AGAIN. but what's done cannot be undone. i'm just glad to tell others that i'm finally done with the horror of grade eight ((: nope, result slips ain't out yet, so i don't exactly know how i screwed it up, but it's alright, i know i tried my best, and i really did. can't help it if i'm so screwed up right? (: and anybody who actually gets distinction for grade eight is a genius, really. but i'm glad for th marks i got alrd. a big shout out to MS LEE, i'm really really sorry, i know you won't be reading this so i'll keep it short and write th rest in th letter (: thankyou for your guidance all these years, i know that i disappointed you time and again, but at least this isn't th lowest i've gotten. really (: and you should know it best. you've watched me climb so far, it's kind of sad to see you walk to th corner and watch me continue climbing all by myself now. i'll miss you alot, really. iloveyou.

i want to say alot now that i know how i really fared. but somehow i don't feel like typing all of these up here. some stuff are meant to be kept to myself anw (: feeling a mishmash of emotions now, the feeling of relief, happiness, but yet the feeling of disappointment and failure. yeah i know i kind of expected it, but it's still a set back. took 5 ABRSM exams in total, no distinctions, 3 merits, 2 passes. well, i've no comments. dip's gna be another tougher journey, but yes, i'll survive it, i will. i can already feel myself improving slowly, but yet steadily. really. it's this kind of feeling of accomplishment which i never felt before when i'm slowly able to play those dip songs. looks difficult, sounds difficult, but when you actually master them, its easy. fingerwork. it all boils down to good fingerwork.

i suddenly feel like i can sightread a lot better after starting on dip course haha. i don't know why either, but somehow. just somehow. like what my teacher said "you'll get used to the keys soon" and yes thats exactly what i'm feeling now. running keys without any rhyme or pattern is now much easier to sighread as compared to before. i wonder how much i scored in sightreading for my grade eight. really xD hmm, why am i talking about all these stuff now O: don't know just am feeling very emotional about all these stuff, got the message about my score at a very anticlimax timing and so now all the feelings are just starting to flood me now. i'm suddenly thinking about all i've done, all i've gone through to reach where i am today. i know. it's not good to many of you, it's not good to me too, but it's a fact that i can't change. but i'll still love it anyway, because i believe that i've tried my best.

things are hectic around here, a lot of stuff to complete many things to figure out. i've no time to think about this anymore. really. i'll get down to the letter soon enough so i'll pass it to you by friday. on a lighter note, there's no cca on friday so i can go back to see Ms Lee :D yay! hope i'll be able to catch her tho O: sigh. felt like i haven't seen her in a century D: might not be seeing her in future (after this friday) again. ohrahgahrahgah D: it's ohkay because technology is so advanced now. and i hope score sheets would be out by this friday so i can collect it too! :D then i can analyse how i screwed up. really.

and yes its worth crying over. i'm not nuts. it is worth crying over (:

bio results sucked. but i heck (and yes i still havent managed to cry over marks yet). ih we're getting back on friday because "i havent marked your class's yet" thanks, i'm not looking forward to getting it back.

i have a list of things waiting for me to do. list of letters waiting for me to write. but i cant get down to doing it. sigh

on a sidenote, i didnt get killed as badly as i expected today! (: and time flew, really.

i.want.to.sleep.

its a holiday tmr. i want to have a phone convo marathon ! (: who wants to join xD i've somebody in mind alrd, but she'll hang up before one hour is up. im sure. sigh.

"If today is World Stealing Day, what would you steal from me? And why?"

got really really weird answer xD

"height and brains"
"your brain."
"your hat so you'll get scolded during footdrill"
"your lameness"
"your physics result, coz you get so high"
"your friendship cause to me that's th most valuable!"
"i'll steal your culinary skills. since you more or less knew what you were doing when we made the quiche"
"parts of your brains. and it's e parts tat r smarter thn me"
"i won't steal anything from you"
"of course steal your money lah"
"th crazy moments n memories we had frm you cos i treasure th times we spend tgthr :) n i'll steal your unhappiness away so you'll be a happy person"
"reserve your brains for me"
"i'll steal ur heart!"
"to take something from you, i need to know what you have, which i don't know. besides, stealing is wrong and i have everything i need. so, that's my answer."
"part of your friendship and never return it so we'll be friends forever!"
"your piano grade eight cert cos u'll sure get distinction plus the pieces r super difficult to play."

and many many more (: see who gave th most matured answer! and those what wants my brains a lil' bit keehaha alrd also. where got scholars ask non-scholars for brains de. and where got smart people ask dumb person for brains de please!

quote from LALA

and i went keehaha over mr c's reply omg lah xD he somemore sent me th reason twice, and th second time he went nyuknyuk and wth is nyuk ?! -.- then went keehaha lorh -.-

i.am.happy.over.nothing (:

I.AM.VERY.HAPPY.NOW.

and i don't know why either (: whoo~ dance lesson today quite keehaha one lah. and my muscle ache is like still everywhere, rah D: by tmr i'll get a new bout of muscle ache from dance today. rahrah. and i look damn retarded dancing ohman ._. i'm listening to my keehaha song now and wondering how on earth am i supposed to be able to play it. even if i'm able to play it, how to play so fast -.- gooseness gracious me ._. rahrah.

i need to do my LA.

sob.

ohkay this is quite contridicting. but i'm still very happy (:

where. should. i. go. for. gcp. ?.